忍不住想要爱你的冲动~~~
Recently keep repeating singing this song... haha... My ex bday jus passed, i'm as an ex to him, tinkin of tat 4 yrs relationship, i tink i need to at least send him a bday wish.. Belows are the smses goes:
Me: Yo! Happy bday! All the best to u! :>
Ex: Just another day but is nice to hav someone remembering. Thank you. How you?
Me: I'm fine here, hope u're good in everything too! :>
Ex: July is always low season for us. But will get by. You have some letters. 1 of these days free go my place collect.
Me: Ic,ya, i'll go collect soon,i've just change my ic add le, but will take some time to take effect, thanks for info, enjoy ur day ya!
Ex: You too. :>
As u all can see, i was reluctant to say more, all so fu1 yan3, he know my character well de la, i would write alot of my things to update him, but now i didn't, i know he can sense i've already changed...
Yest went to ktv with hui ling & her fren, we sang until 8pm, after tat i went back my ex's place to collect my letters & return the house keys to aunty...
When i reach der, aunty helped me to knock his door & asked him to take out my letters inside his room, he saw me, he's abit shock n awkward, i dunno y, mayb he never expect me to come on sat ba, then he took out letters n passed to me, after tat closed his door, i tot there's someone inside his room, hehe... Yest i acted very normal & happy, no more sad face, jus like nothing happened before... After tat, i knock his door again to check whether i've take back all my things, i saw his face super sad n his eyes are like after crying, i dunno, jus weird, i saw those our photos still on the table, i asked him to keep it all inside, no need to put here liao, he's awkward again, then he asked me how about my notes, i told him tat those books his sis need to study for ACCA soon, which he never know about it... I told him i've already take back all my things le... I chattd with aunty in living room for a while, then this is the first time she asked me not to wait for him anymore, go find someone better, he's useless, i tink his sis oso advised her not to keep me waitin for him, like tat very selfish to me... I tot yest i wun cry anymore after leaving his house, but i cried again, i'm human afterall, got feelin de...
Everyone is tellin me that he'll come back to me 1 day if he realised i'm still the best for him, but i hope he won't do it to me, i jus wanna carry on my life, tis r/s already broken, now i finally can get back to my single life, can do everythin at home without fears, even if i won't be attached with tat someone in future, i know i can live on myself le, of course it's good to hav someone to pamper la.. hehe.. I finally know the sentence everybody used to console me --> Time heal...
I'm trying myself not to tink of everythin past about him, cuz i'll only feel sad if i do it so... Whereas, i tink of tat someone, i'll always happy & smile to myself sometimes, hehe... He really can brighten my days lo... I know he cares alot about me, but i'm wondering if tat's a pure frenship or anythin tat can go further... Like & love is different lo... sigh... I'm eatin his sweet chocorate now.. Yest he asked me whether i've already finish eatin it, then i told him it's too sweet la... Then he reply chocorate sure sweet la, if not sour ar? haha... Pls lor, tat 2 big pieces of chocorate how i can i finish all within few days, hehe... hmmm..but it's very sweet inside my heart la... haha... Okok..i go take a bath, then go shop for a thing for him... Take care all... :>
