Sigh... Girls six sense is very accurate one... He sms me yest tellin me something... Some smses as belows:
Ex: Only u & sis remembered my bday, mum not even say a single word...
Me: I believe she remembered jus tat she didn't say out, Pls remember tat only if u show more concern to others, then pp will do the same to u, nothing is granted in this world, dun tink too much la, i'm sure she's the person who care u the most :>
Ex: You really wan me to remove the photos in the room? just ans me yes / no
Me: Up to u, i've already let go...
Ex: I only wan ur answer
Ex:?
Me: tat's ur room, i got no right to say anything, pls decide urself
Ex: It's not about got right no right, ur room, my room, I jus wan to know what u're tinkin
Me: I tink there's no point to put der anymore, it's broken
No more smses from him... Honestly speakin, i dun wan him to come back to me again, pls... I've already let go, i can back to my single life, dun let me tink about his past, make me go back to those sad moment on how he became so cruel to me... I cant take it, how to not worry if he wun repeat the same thing to me in future again?? Some more, my heart keep tellin me i dun wish to go back le, I do still care alot & worried about him, dunno wat exactly happened to him, but i oso dun wish to know the reason, what if tat's a valid reason, yet i cant do anythin to go back, like tat seems like i'm the one who dun cherish this relationship, who give up...
I called aunty yest nite to ask whether she still remembered his bday, she told me ya, she do, but he didn't go back home, so she got no chance to wish him, tat's his fault wat... Sigh... I think now he then realised tat he's not only losing me, but his family too... He started to worry, he tot i'll still love him & will go back to him anytime if he wan to, but plss.... Mayb he underestimated me, i'm much stronger than everyone expected, Or mayb he tot i'm tat open book which he can fully understand my thinkin & know wat i'm goin to do next step...
Be frank, i'll go back to him 3 wks ago when i asked him out, but he refused to come out, he's the one who ask me to LET GO... PLS LET GO... Well... I did it... So pls really follow wat u wish to... Once i've already let go, it's too late to say anything... Don't forced me to say those sentences that u told me when i beg u.. "Things r not the same... things changed... it's very tiring to drag on... problem cant b solved if i keep tinkin there's still a hope for our relationship... pls let go... , etc" All i remembered, i hurt very deeply inside, not givin me any single chance to salvage, i felt hopeless... I beg him to send me home cuz tat's my home, n i wanna be his woman forever, i keep tellin him tis sentence, many times...... but he's so cruel, still tellin me tat he really dun mean to hurt me to became so cruel, our relationship fade le...
I chatted with cai yest until 2.20am, hee... I cried again, sigh... We tink mayb he wanted to set a game to test me, wan me to learn how to live without him, so that if we go back again, i wun tie him anymore, he can get back his freedom & havin me around too, but he took too much risk in this game already... Since he already so sure tat he cant give me any future, asked me to find someone better, how can i hav any hope to be with him in future?? I'm those emotional type, jus follow wat my feelin ask me to, if my feelin changed, very little chance i would go back to him...
The last thing is mayb he got valid reason which he really canot say out, i dunno...
My heart can only give to & focus on 1 person, i canot multi-taskin in this matter, hehe... pls dun complicated my life... I wish u're always good in everythin, really.... pls find a girl who's good to u n ur familys too, pls settle down, dun keep others worried about u... I can truly give u my wishes...
